4 days in langkawi were the best! I love love love it! gona miss my time there, since every single moment was not wasted at all. thanx nashrin for being our loyal friend/tour guide. hehe.
now i need to unpack, and reunited with my baby. =)
off topic for a sec, do u know whats the hardest thing to do? to be happy for ur enemy. hah! i have this one girl who messed up my life few years ago, and i know it was history and i dont keep any grudges..but still, finding out some happy news about her makes me feel..well, nothing actually. but hell, if i need to be happy for her..absolutely not!
Im pretty sure she feels the same way. i cant let go of the fact that she, in fact, was a former bitch. Sorry sista.
Fun is over
Di Langkawi
What a perfect start of a holiday! the flight was on time, i got window seat, unlike yati who had to sit with busybody women.haha. Though a bit jumpy cuz its raining, we've landed safely at Langkawi airport and waited for yati's friend to pick us up. i had dinner at the airport itself, and when nashrin arrived, we had dinner again in sum 'old school' restaurant. i just had veggie soup.
Along the way to our resort, i saw such colorful shops, i just cant wait to buy some nice dresses!! Then we reach our room, quite nice and cute. everything is acceptable. And yeah!! i can online here!! Yippie!
Tomorrow gonna be a super day (i'll make sure of that), so gonna rest early..
Holiday with bff - whats cooler than that huh? But im missing my baby back at home. Aaaaa... ;)
Sunday Morning
..And im so bored, waiting for yati to deliver my souvenir. hahahaha. For the time being, lets snap some low quality pic,just for fun. Yep, meaning u can laugh. But its me who r having fun today.;)
Labels: boredom
Kukis (Cookies)
Everybody was lazy today. Mum was too lazy to cook. Dad was too lazy to laze around without doing anything. And the others just plain bored. I was bored. And stressed out! So everybody went out to shop. i went out too, meeting baim and damn, wat a relief!! All whole-week stories poured out. Me about the ghost in my house, him about fishing. Sweet eh? And afterward, i handed out some 'cornflake madu' to him before saying goodbye. Now everybody can ask me how to make your man happy? Just make him his favorite cookies. I swear it works.
ps: i'll make some chocolate cookies soon and give some to him. He will go crazy again. i swear. (smug face)
About acceptance
i accept the fact that ive done you wrong,
i accept the fact that it is all my fault,
i accept the fact that i have said sorry so many times,
i feel like a fool.
i accept the fact that sometimes i dont deserve this kind of punishment,
but i cannot do anything about it because im so damn tired.
i also accept the fact that i realize you dont remember how i forgive u so easily when uve done worse things.
i am done saying sorry.
Missing You
I see you,
In front of me,
And i imagine how i see you,
Inside my little heart.
I used to make up stories,
To make u a reason,
That makes me hate you so much,
I thought it makes me feel better,
I thought wrong...
I do my everyday thing,
Brave as always,
Oh do i look so strong?
And even seems like i dont care?
You walk pass by,
And that charm of yours lingers,
I cannot breathe easy,
But as always im good in pretending.
Does anyone ever finds out about me?
Does anyone ever feel this?
Can u sense it somehow,
Can u read me?
I've been trough many things that make me cry,
I've been through a lot,
I've been heartbroken now and then,
But the hardest thing of all,
Is knowing the fact that you have no idea at all,
That i am missing you.
Yesterday, today and tomorrow,
And i hate it, yes i hate it so much,
Cuz i cant even let you know...
ps: Dedicated to my friend, Amy. She said she's missing sumone but she cant let him know. And suddenly i gave birth to this poem as a gift to her. hope she's doing ok...
Sickly
Oh, just wana 'manja-manja' wif all of you who are reading. im sick. That monthly kind of sick. This time its so bad i just lie down and sleep most of the time. I think my face looks bloated.
Tomorrow gonna be better.
Dealing with My Own Weakness
Few days ago my boyfriend pointed out a certain weakness of mine that irritates and annoys him. And i said i will try to change it to make things better for both of us. He said im too emotional and tends to complain about petty things. As i cannot see his other good qualities.
Its true. But him saying ive been ignoring the better sides of him.. hell no. Of course i appreciate every single thing that comes from him. He is almost perfect. Duh, if only he ever reads my blog. But i bet certain men just dont read blogs.
Baby said he cant really sure that i will actually change because this thing happens so many times before. Deep inside i admit its true. But i make a vow anyway, to improve myself slowly. I love him and i simply cant afford to upset him.
I know this weakness of mine is just a part of me that is not easy to let go. Its like a virus in your pc, one day u thought it is gone, and another day it just pops out without any clear warning. Either you deal with it again and again, or u get another pc.
Well, relationships are of course more complicated and like me, its such a messy emotional journeys. Boys, you just cant avoid being involved in this whiny, hormonal, complicated creature. Or else you might as well being in love with the same sex.
Lazy
Today is Monday, but really it felt like Sunday. It literally a good thing..more rest, more lepak2 dekat rumah. But felt like im feeling TOO lazy lately and i eat a lot!!!!!! Muka dah gemok, bulat mcm bola, but what the hell, hari2 masak sedap aje, especially today, masak ayam goreng sambal, i ate too much, rasa mcm perut dah expand sampai 2 kali ganda, and badan dah naik 2 kilo.
When there is no problem at all, especially no programming error to solve, then little little things pun aku nak fikir je skrg, just so my brain will keep working or else,and i wont fall to sleep all the time (like i did dis afternoon, and the afternoon before)
Then i keep thinking about my precious boyfriend yg juga tgh bermalas malasan di rumah, he cudnt go out sbb rumah under renovation n dia kena monitor mamat2 bangla/indon, or else boleh aku ajak teman pg minum ke, mkn abc ke...And whoosh i miss him so much rasa tension sgt. Then aku rasa nak kawin je cepat2, kalau boleh besok aku nak kawin, so aku takyah la tepisah dgn dia lagi n hari2 boleh dgr dia buat lawak spastik kat aku lepas tu aku boleh gelak2 sampai aku tak perasan gelak aku sebijik mcm hyena pondan.
Then tiba2 aku rasa bersyukur sgt sbb 5 tahun dah kenal budak arab ni, rasa cinta tu tak kurang2, of course la time gaduh rasa mcm bengang je, tapi bengang tu skjp je, bila dah ok balik, bukan main bahagia lagi. jodoh kot?
But hari ni dia pulak bengang ngan aku sbb each time dia call, aku occupied n takleh nak layan dia. Eleh mcm la selalu aku buat2 busy kan..
Hari ni nak tido awal lah...before that nak baca buku Stephen King. And tomorrow nak jumpa dia nak lepas rindu sikit lepas tu nak bg peluang dia buli aku. Im sure he misses me too.
*calling him*
Beef Steak!
Yeay today was brilliant as i have gained yet another knowledge about cooking using my own method.heh heh heh. BEEF STEAK!
I bought the meat from the market, and i chose the tender part of the meat, called 'batang pinang'. I never knew it is quite expensive, compared to the normal part of the meat. Usually its 18 ringgit per kg, but for batang pinang, it is 24 ringgit per kg. And abang daging tried to make a joke, saying, "memandangkan akak ni cute, kite bagi diskaun lah, jadi 23 ringgit je." Eleh...
So to home i went, cutting the meat into thin slices, clean em up and yeah, i really didnt know what to put to marinate the beef, so as usual, i create my own ingredients. garlic, lada hitam ditumbuk halus, some chili powder, some curry powder,some pepper, mixed herbs and oyster sauce. Put butter on the pan, and there u go!!! SEDAP pulak!
I cant eat the steak alone, and there is no salad in the fridge, so i cooked some rice, and made some tomato gravy with cauliflower and fried potato. SEDAP pulak!
Everybody said it was a delicious steak, and i eat a lot sampai pening2 kepala. NYUM NYUM!
Mode: bangga.

